I haven't written in a little bit. Nothing too much has happened. I turned twenty-six Sunday. My dad was older a few hours ago. Right now I'm watching 1 vs 100 and trying to fight my cat as she wants to lay between my arms. Now she walked across them when she COULD have gone behind. I love my little girl. For the past month or so she won't leave my side when I'm home and I really love it. She makes me feel so special. It doesn't seem much but it really is to me.

My knees are both bothering me so much. I know the cold has something to do with it but I just wish the would stop. I know its arthritis now. I'm sure of it with the swelling and constant pain. Advil doesn't work anymore. Tomorrow I'm going to try the Tylenol Arthritis. It claims it will work all day. We'll see!

My dad went to the oncologist Thursday. His PSA was only up about one point so that's so much better and the doctor doesn't want to see him for two months as opposted to one month. I'm excited. So far he's survived four years. Our goal is a lifetime but atleast 11 because his first doctor said he didn't have patients with his diagnosis live more than ten years. He's going to be the first. I'm so sure of it. Though I was sure he didn't have cancer.

He told me today something that makes me cry now. Before I was born my great-uncle was so excited to see me. He was in the hospital and my dad said he would ask if I was born yet all the time. My mom carried me for ten months so I was really late. Well he died Jan 6, 1981 and I was born Jan 7. My great-grandma, his mother, told me when i was 11 that he died so I could be born. He helped but I felt guilty. My dad said today that maybe he's the one that will die so his future grandchild can be born. That just wouldn't be fair. that's all he wants more in life is a granddaughter. I would be so...devestated. I told him that if I have a girl after he's gone I'll name her Pebble Jean for him. That's my nickname he gave me. He liked that I think. I just hope a husband I get will agree.

Well I think I'm going to cut this short and maybe check myspace.