My brother-in-law who was in jail hanged himself about 10 days ago. I had so many issues with him because my sister was going down quickly. She is jail now and did get to attend the funeral. Even though they had thier problems she was destroyed. I couldn't look her in the eye more than a couple of times because ever since we were little when our eyes met we could feel what they other felt. I couldn't bear to feel her pain especially when I couldn't help her. She's in trouble and I can't help. I pray everyday but that's all I can do anymore. They played a song at his funeral that touched me. I think of a lot of people when I hear it now.

Kenny Chesney -Who You'd Be Today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
See your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone

(Chorus:)It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today

Would you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Someday's the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy

It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today

Today

Today

Today

Today

Today

Today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again someday

Someday, someday